The Facts: White blames himself for his current situation -- looking for a job in the NFL after being shown the door by two teams in the past two months -- but he's still shell-shocked and unsure of what's next. White admitted to mistakes in his NFL career -- including smoking marijuana -- but said he'd changed. "It's been humbling, you know what I mean?" White said. "You live and you learn and this is the last time I want to ever live through anything like this."

Diehards Line:In Tennessee he was frustrated by a lack of playing time behind All-Pro Chris Johnson, yet was in the best shape of his career and welcomed the April trade to Seattle, where he was reunited with his coach at Southern Cal, Pete Carroll. White said he was a good employee, but what he thought was a fresh start quickly turned sour. Five weeks after the trade, the Seahawks waived him. "No one told me why I was really released, so I don't really know and I don't like to comment on what-ifs or why," said White. In addition to the fact he's facing a four-game suspension, reports out of Seattle suggest White wasn't making the expected effort.